This Town
This town where I grew up,
a watering hole atop a ravaged hill
where drink flowed freely and personal demons
were never vanquished, just boozed and blurred
into temporary submission.
Industry and open-cast scars ate like
acid into this town’s dying face.
The school where pubescence erupted
suddenly and savagely into manhood
was planted on marshland,
sinking slowly by the year.
You should never harbor regrets
but I can’t help it;
the girls I knew but never kissed,
possessing neither the looks, dialogue or charm
enough to convince them I was alive.
Things I did, like painting damp seeping walls
and digging deep lonely graves;
things I never did and never will
I regret most of all.
When Autumn leaves burned gloriously
from gnarled branches, slate-grey skies
fortold harsh Winter on it’s way.
This town turned darker, more drab and grey,
it’s streets, shops and pubs
forlorn structures in architectural disarray.
Those many times I would roam it’s decrepit
avenues at night,
alcohol-charged and wayward and stupid.
Always I felt unnoticed, inconsequential,
a nobody, a nothing, in this town;
derealised, not solid, I felt I wasn’t really there at all.
Only in retrospect does it seem sad.
At the time I was happy, for I possessed
some meagre vision,
and an idiot with a flicker of sight in the
realm of the terminally blind
is closer to being king.
But no one in this town knew at the time,
least of all me,
and I don’t live in this town anymore.
Copyright © Tony Bush | Year Posted 2005
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