The Worm Poem

A Certain Kind Of Death 

She was in love 
Their expression of it 
Was the perfection of it 
The way they shared 
What they had 
Was beyond compare
Today is the culmination 
Of their dedication 
Today she is pregnant 
Overwhelmed 
Overjoyed
Her heart sings 
Then the phone rings 

At the hospital 
Next to her dead husband 
How is this possible 
Why did this happen 
Grief stricken
But not heartbroken 
She still had a piece of him 
She had to be strong 
For their child
Even though he was gone 
She had to find a way 
To march on 

Pain and spot bleeding
At the hospital again
Getting ready for birthing 
No rhyme or reason 
For complication 
She took care of her body
Took care of her baby 
Its two months too soon
For the child to leave the womb 
Lacking strength and power 
It only lived an hour 
She could only scream 
She could only scream 

No strength to go through the motions
She hasn’t seen family or friends
Trying to find something within
nothing left to give 
No reason to live 
Her mind is out of reasons
she is dead inside
Her memories fading away
She’s doesn’t want to lose them
Tries to hold on to them 
She racks her brain all day 
Trying to find a way 
To keep them fresh and vibrant 

It came to her at a convenience store
A fisherman was buying some worms
She saw them wiggling 
Saw them moving 
She bought all they had 
And took them home 
She knew she had gone mad
But she didn’t want to be alone
Lying in her bed 
Longing for the dead 
She put the worms in her womb 
And pretended her baby was alive

Her days were filled with joy 
They were going to have a boy
Her husband would stay home
He could finally feel him kick and move 
His happiness was there only wish
They would love and cherish 
Every moment of everyday 
The perfect family 
For everyone to envy 
She wasn’t alone anymore 
She didn’t have to cry 
She was no longer ripped and torn 

Her evenings were horrifying 
She wasn’t taking worms out
She was reliving her baby dying 
She never once heard it crying 
Never got to hold it in her arms 
Failed to keep it from harm 
She was useless 
She was helpless
She was hopeless
She should have died too 
She should have kept him inside her
Even if it had killed her 

She decided one day 
To keep her baby 
Decided not to let the doctors take it away
She started to feel some pain 
She decided on a name 
She can barely move now 
She would keep David safe somehow
She’s constantly bleeding and convulsing 
She can feel his life pulsating 
She gave birth before she died
With the worms pouring out 
and of one thing there is no doubt

There is a certain kind of death 
Waiting, for some of us
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Thirtyseven Avatar
April 25, 2015 at 1:58 AM
Ooh yeah, there's a lot of unnerving stuff in here. But what a write, what passion. Great stuff.
Nunez Avatar
March 2, 2015 at 6:47 PM
Got curious over the original write with your recent post. This is even better than the sequel. Not that I favor this type. However, your skillful storytelling had me spellbound, again. Kim
Lamoureux Avatar
March 1, 2015 at 9:37 AM
I am almost lost for words. This is both exceptional and disturbing. The impression will stay with me. I am off to read part two.
Beesley Avatar
January 25, 2015 at 7:41 PM
Speechless...no sound sleeping 2night
Callus Avatar
December 16, 2014 at 9:54 AM
Hi Nathan...this is so powerfully sad, touching, dramatic and very emotional. Love does play tricks on the mind. // paul
Gibson Avatar
May 21, 2014 at 2:49 PM
Whoa, Nathan, this is incredible!
Harrell Avatar
May 21, 2014 at 12:42 PM
I hope not. I don't think anyone is waiting to die. I think they are waiting to live! Great poem :)
A   Avatar
March 16, 2014 at 12:58 PM
My sweet love.. :) It was nice to see your poem featured in the poetry soups, home page this past week. Enjoy the coming week. Always & Forever *LINDA
A  Avatar
March 11, 2014 at 10:10 AM
This one gets me good all the time, still a fav. Nate, CONGRATULATIONS, on having your poem featured on the soup's home page. I'm always enjoying The Soups top picks of the week. Take Care ~SKAT~
Duncan Avatar
October 17, 2013 at 3:15 AM
A lot of images coming thru here, have you known any one who has lost their babies ? I have, " me" twice, you describe it pretty well. Hey thank you for coming by to read my Fairy Tales poem ;} I will be reading your other poems ;}
Gasun Avatar
August 10, 2013 at 10:18 PM
Good morning my very dear friend Nathan. I'm deeply moved by your very touching & heartfelt poem.I couldn't help myself but cry. You wrote such a stunning & outstanding masterpiece. I'm so sorry for the late read but I'm loving your precious gem so much. Thank you so much for sharing. Thank you as well for my win in your latest contest & also the previous ones. Million thanks! Big hugs! Pls. give my regards to my poet sis. Have a grace-filled wkend to you and your love ones! love lots, Leonora
Onclaud Avatar
August 10, 2013 at 2:37 PM
way beyond my expectations, nathan.. this gripping account , with detailed plots and images, astound me...i felt this languishing mood and empathisized with your subject... thank you for appreciating my piece, i enjoyed the whole process... :) i'll try to submit something for your fairy theme...huggs and all the best
La France Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 2:32 PM
Nathan, what a heart wrenching write, I brought tears to my eyes to think of the pain this women endured, you took us on a very emotional, deep and dark journey, well done and I want to thank you for my wins in yours contests, Good Poems Only and Late Night Poems, I am so very honoured. Constance
Richards Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 9:25 AM
This poem seems to be based on some tragic true life story (I hope not).....but pulls the emotions along the most difficult ride. Those last two lines....say it all, with somber, graphic reality.... I hope we will see more of your poetry posted Nathan.. ps.....thank you always for the compliment when choosing my poems for placement in your contests. Thanks! Carrie
Dietrich Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 7:15 AM
so if you see two very similar ones, it's the sonnet that I want entered and not the shorter version of that poem. Maybe my poem did not show up at all. I am very confused! since your contest area looks like it will allow me to enter your contest (but still I am showing already entered in my own member area)
Dietrich Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 7:13 AM
oh oh!!! I just saw that you had no soupmail. Ok, first thanks for liking my poems in your contest. It was a very nice surprise to see myself on both lists last night. Second, I entered your fairy contest last night and something weird happened. I may have entered another one by accident with almost the same title, but when I went back to see what happened, it was very odd. It does not show me as having entered at all, yet I am showing it was entered in my member area.
Dietrich Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 7:09 AM
I do remember this poem. It really stuck in my head from the last time I read it. And thanks for putting it here because I wanted to get a hold of you by soupmail. Please see my message.
Chircop Avatar
July 21, 2013 at 4:50 PM
Ow gee this reminds me of a friend of mine who lost her baby and she.nearly died too..In her case their was her husband for support.Your poem is very deep and I do believe depression can easily knock the door when loosing someone we love and there s nothing worse.than facing it alone..Well done
A   Avatar
July 6, 2013 at 10:39 PM
:-) enjoying your Featured Poem of the week. take care and have yourself a great coming week. xox~ LINDA"
Anglesey Avatar
July 4, 2013 at 5:54 PM
Nathan, a mesmerizing poem that certainly has some drama and shock value. Captivating :)
A  Avatar
July 4, 2013 at 9:56 AM
happy 4th Nate, I have a feeling I read this poem a few times. lmfao' anyhow :-) it looks awesome in the front page. Luv*SKAT
Dietrich Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 11:13 PM
Nathan, so glad you liked my Saturday Reflection because I think it is one of my best for non rhyming style. Where are more poems from you? get them up!!!
Dietrich Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 11:13 PM
BTW, tell Linda hi for me and that I hope she is doing ok.
Gabriella Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 2:35 PM
Wow, this is a truly great write. Very well constructed and told.Very well written. Great work!
Liwayway Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 11:30 AM
a great write friend Nathan...very creative,..thanks for my win. Have a nice day always. Hugs, Maria
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