The Road To Heaven

his compassion and love is so real to me, no one else can compare, when life just doesn't seem going right, and i feel left in utter despair, i've lost so much already, i couldn't bear to lose much more, i've cried out to him in my distress from old pains i can't endure, he promises me i will understand once i get to heaven's gates, that everything was meant to be, there are no real mistakes. he knew which ways i'de turn, and what was meant to be, he knew my heart would break a dozen times over, and his love i'de eventually see. throughout this life i know one thing, that he is very real, his love remains so deep inside of me that no one could ever steal, he started back in my childhood, and has led me up to now, i never understood how deep i'de fall in love with him, and i never knew quite how, i've felt his presence next to me, and has heard his inner voice along the way, i cannot express that growth from then to now, it just grew bigger from day to day, everynight i'de pour my heart out with all my concerns, mistakes, and flaws, i tried so hard not to follow my own way, and abide in all of his laws, i knew he put the laws there to protect me through life, so trouble wouldn't come my way, growing up my family tried pushing me to perfection in fear that i would mess up and then stray, they were right and i knew this, but i chose to leave, feeling so imperfect in the lord's sight, i've messed up too much, loosing acceptance to family and god, so i was going to give up the fight, i used to tell god, "my families too perfect, i never hear them admit to their mistakes, they can't go through life without making bad choices, or sinning so they must be fakes, i don't meet their qualifications, i am not them, and they are not me, im truthful, i'll admit to anything i did wrong, because that's not the person i want to be, .as i grew older, i didn't care so indepth about what other people thought of me, i got more comfortable in my own skin, for the remorse i felt in mistakes that i've made, only u can judge my sins, i will never pretend to be someone im not, and will always lend an ear to the lowly of heart, ive been in their shoes, you've saved me through your love, and from that we will never part, i belong to you, and put my heart in your hands, for all of the world to see, when life gets mischeveled, i fall back into your arms, for your love has set me free.