The Most Needed Christmas Gift

Dedicated to Papa This Christmas morning has dawned I stir and stare up at the ceiling Then it hits me, this emotion of dread This feeling I didn't know I could be feeling. The day I dreaded has now arrived And others cry out in joy But there's one lonely girl standing off to the side Lost in a world where happiness can't deploy. I open my presents with my family And admire them, one by one But something is missing, it's so obvious That the most needed present is gone. I glance around, unsure if I am right And Mom stares curiously I stand and make up some excuse So they won't see tears fall down my cheek. Silently crying in my room, I vow to be happy But even the willpower I have Is not enough, instead, it's sapping My life has become a deep, dark hole That I knew would be here I knew this moment would come When there would fall many tears. I got everything I wanted And all the things on my list Each item was crafted perfectly Each card sealed with a kiss. But there was one thing missing As I stood, longing for some kind of touch From the person I lost in my life The thing I needed most was love. But now he's gone so suddenly But that was two years ago Why can't I get over this death? Why can't I ever let go? Why does this only affect me at Christmastime? Why not any other part of the year? Is there some reason for this sadness? For this agony and tears? Others long to reach out and help me I can see it in their eyes But I dart away from all help And explain it away with lies. I wish there were some person Who I could spill all of this to But now I know I never can Because that one person is you. I got everything I asked for The gifts perfect like a dove But I got nothing that I needed What I needed most was love.