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The More and Less of Me

there is less to me than there was before
less....rolls
less....dimples in my thighs
less belly
less chunks
less chubby chubs

Yes, there's less to me than there was before
but oh....
can't you see?
there is so much MORE to me
More zest for life
more happiness
more sexy swing
more scintillating sultry
more contented confidence
more...pride
more love of self

Yes, there is so much more to me
and yet...
I pause to think
I'm the same me
padded or not
curvy or lean
why am I mean?
to the one inside
she's the same woman
the one I'm never meant to hide

I want her to know
It's ok...it is OK
she'll get there someday
not to where she was at 21
those days are gone and done

back to a healthy self esteem
and a healthy weight
Wouldn't it be great!
size liberated...wise!
the journey...the real prize!

More or less body
still 100 percent heart and soul!!
I'm getting there
I'm getting there
I hope you can see
I'm still the same new/old me
a woman
in love
with life
words
and poetry....

Eileen Manassian

Copyright © Eileen Manassian | Year Posted 2016

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Lisa Ricci Date: 5/2/2017 3:33:00 AM Good Morning Eileen. Yes, this is why the Free Verse is so mighty. This entry is marvelous. I enjoyed the elegance and quiet tone not to mention how the thoughts and words just flowed. You allow the reader to pause and the ending is priceless. This entry has true positiveness attached. Well done in its entirety. Login to Reply

Freddie Robinson Jr. Date: 1/26/2017 2:44:00 PM P.S. I loved the ending to this poem. Beautifully stated, Eileen. Love and hugs to you. Login to Reply

Freddie Robinson Jr. Date: 1/26/2017 2:39:00 PM I am so happy for you, Eileen. This is such a beautiful testimony. I can relate on this level ... I've been both lean and fat, but I always gave the marching orders, when to come and when to go. I've always loved the hidden me more than the visible me, I've always loved my mind more than my body. Excellent poetry, dear. Love and peace to you. Login to Reply

Paulette Calasibetta Date: 12/31/2016 5:57:00 PM An inspiration to us all...The image we have of ourselves and the image we project, honest and true! Enjoyed this..... Paulette Calasibetta Login to Reply

Akkina Downing Date: 12/28/2016 6:40:00 PM I enjoy reading this a lot, it inspire me to be me, the real me inside that cares and loves life. I have the opposite issue, I can't get pregnant because I'm too thin, this depreses me for so long and still is, but im learning to deal with it and trying to find joy in life as I am. I wish you the best. A healthy life means happiness. Big hug :) Login to Reply

Arthur Vaso Date: 12/24/2016 9:04:00 PM I read this last night and my comment didnt go through! (maybe cause of the win I was having?) Anyways I loved the last lines "a woman in love with life words and poetry...." If only I could find a woman filled with such beauty as that!!! :) Login to Reply

Richard Lamoureux Date: 12/23/2016 8:34:00 AM This is perfect and contemplative. It is good that you want your body and soul to be healthy and strong. Because you are in love with words through words you can reshape yourself and your world. A big Christmas hug. Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/24/2016 7:16:00 PM Thank you, dear. You do uplift my spirits. I will get back to that treadmill this week. Finally...the semester is over. More time on my hands now. Merry Christmas, dear. God bless...

Demetrios Trifiatis Date: 12/22/2016 5:57:00 AM My dearest, Eileen, the value of a diamond doesn't change because of the box it is put in! In the same way, YOU, remain YOU no matter what the "wrapping" seems to be! Excellent! Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/24/2016 8:04:00 PM You are so kind, my dear poet. :) Bless you for this description. You have made me soar. I am a little too well wrapped! ;) I want to shed some more of my wrappings. :) A diamond needs to shine! ;)

Paul Callus Date: 12/20/2016 1:43:00 PM That's the spirit, Eileen!! I'll be proud to take you round Valletta and show you off, whether it's the new or the old Eileen:):) ...as long as you keep the 'inside' intact. Big hugs to you. Regards // paul Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/24/2016 8:07:00 PM I miss you....I miss Valetta and Mdina. I miss MALTA. :) One day I will return...an new and improved version of me, anyway. Thank you for the kind post. it shows that you have a good heart. Enjoy Christmas!!!

CayCay Jennings Date: 12/19/2016 10:20:00 PM Are you having therapy in front of the whole world again? I love the depths you go to with this, you are more or less always you; weight has naught to do with the 'core' you, as you were born. This write is profound, yet simple, isn't it? Your expressions probed self worth in an honestly innocent matter, to me. I enjoyed it and truly pray that no matter what you do or don't add on, you gain faith in your beauty. These wonderfully searching lines could just as easily apply to aging. CayCay Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/20/2016 1:52:00 AM Hello, sweet one. Thank you for understanding my way of dealing with my never ending body image issues! I had a bit of a difficult past three weeks, and I need to psyche myself up to go the distance. I feel better about myself when I know I care enough to care for my body. Yes, it could apply to aging as well. I'm struggling with that too. Love you, dear. Hugs

David Meade Date: 12/19/2016 8:26:00 PM Here is what I love about you LO, you are beautiful, a woman who loves and cares about words, who knows they can encourage and care for others. You write them skillfully - arranging them getting the sound and rhythm just right. You love others through words -- I know, I see it every time I read them. My your strong warrior spirit continue to thrive in your words . . . always!! Love the new and the old. 7 Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/20/2016 1:54:00 AM Thank you, dear Coach. It's SO good to have you BACK! You've been on my mind a lot, but I didn't want to hound you. :) Thank you for seeing beauty in me....not everyone does. I guess that's OK too. I have the ones who love and appreciate me and that makes a WORLD of difference. Hugs to you from LO...New and improved! ;)

Jan Allison Date: 12/19/2016 6:53:00 PM What an inspirational poem Eileen I know you have changed your lifestyle and have lost an incredible amount of weight - the only this you must never lose is your massive heart and your zest for life and your gift of your wonderful words:-) hugs Jan xxx Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/20/2016 1:56:00 AM Thanks, sweetie...I will try. Had a bit of a relapse, but today I'm at it again. Please keep me in your prayers, dear. I need to lose weight before Easter break. I'm planning to visit my daughter and I want to have the TIME OF MY LIFE. With the precarious situation of the world, we need to make the most of every moment. Sending you hugs...

Ilene Bauer Date: 12/19/2016 4:48:00 PM such joy and affirmation in this poem, eileen, but i think you know that you'll always be the same wonderful woman (and excellent poet!) inside no matter how you look on the outside. i'm happy for you that you're moving towards where you want to be... Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/20/2016 2:01:00 AM Thank you, dear. It's a hard journey, but I have a good support system. My daughter is a continual source of strength. I'm pleased with my progress thus far, and I'm hoping I can keep it up. Sending love

Daniel Turner Date: 12/19/2016 4:11:00 PM I love you just as you are, Eileen. Just be happy. A great poem of inspiration. As long as you are happy, I'm happy for you. I see the beauty on the inside, that's why I love you as you are:) Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 12/20/2016 2:04:00 AM :) Thank you, dear....What a lovely post of encouragement. I'm happier than I've been in a long long time. I'm glad you can see deep within...Happy was the day you joined our community of poets. You add SO much! Blessings