The Moment Before

I'm going to a funeral tomorrow Right up close I'll witness grief and loss and I know that I'd set aside the place and time in my head to allow that in And prevented it overwhelming me beforehand by being distracted But it's like I was hiding in the middle of a house of cards Careful steps can only keep you safe a while because all the factors aren't in your control Everything may change today It won't be something I can hide from I'm in a moment in time now where it might be put right and normality return But terrible changes are chasing me I can't ready myself for grief that envelopes me Nor can I run from it I hold normality in the palm of my hand and look at it with tears in my eyes I can't hold it tightly There is nothing I can do if my world changes today Just look at my empty hands and know things were once resting there and I was lucky enough to not worry the whole time about this moment But I don't want this moment today, I did nothing to prepare myself