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The Love and Lost Quartet - Part Four - Closure

i treated your loss just like death
grieving for you as i did my mother
i still wonder if the universe
wasn't teaching me a lesson in karma
for you were a personification of heaven
which surely meant there would be hell to pay

for a year i tried to drown you out
with illegal drugs and spirits
something to wipe away the memories
numb the gut wrenching pain
and to quiet the nightmares
that made me fearful of sleep

you still remain

after my previous endeavors failed
i sought out pleasurable company
calling on old acquiantances
and admirers of our once shared love
dull, boring, lacking in every sense
and that is putting it mildly

then that lonely august afternoon
an unexpected surprise
chiming from within my apartment
your tender voice on the other end
everything rushing back
my soul revitalized

your freshman year in your rearview
returning home to gather creature comforts
inviting me for a ride along to arizona
after all others had declined
i hesitated thinking it a bad idea
but knew the courage it must've took to ask

hey danny, do you remember
sleeping in the cab of your truck
at that shady looking truck stop
just over the new mexico state line
you nestled up in my arms sleeping
just like old times

i remember climbing with you
through the catalina shadows
chasing roses instead of lilacs
jumping over chasms
eating prickly pears
and showering in the springs

three days i spent in your bliss again
while three days you sharpened your dagger
waking up to the sight of ian
hovering over me, smiling
like a buzzard mocking its pray
unaware i'd been mislead

our time together cut short by my request
unable to bear the thought of you having moved on
standing alone at the terminal side-by-side
your hand reached over to cup mine
turning i could see the tears welling up in your eyes
your voice cracking now with apologies

one final embrace
your face buried into my chest as you sobbed
your eyes opening shedding tears
one final kiss
feeling just like the first
under the fall

a decade has gone by
i've sworn off love in hopes
someday you'll return to reclaim what's yours
now and forevermore
even after all we've been through
you still remain

~ fin ~

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Justin Bordner Date: 6/6/2014 8:46:00 PM You learned, perhaps the greatest lesson of all, that love does not die, it simply moves from one place in ypur slul to another, builds a castle there, a hovel here, a palace here, scrapes a ditch there, always building a new home in a diffetent way and place Raven. Sn amazing history and voice you have. J.A.B. Login to Reply Malkavian Raven Date: 6/6/2014 9:28:00 PM You, friend, have been very kind to read the entire quartet and I thank you deeply for being so supportive while reading the greatest and equally tragic chapter in my life. Perhaps, if it is meant to be, there will be an amendment to make this a quintet. ;) Thanks again, J.A.B. - Raven