The Losing Battle

i am scared i am losing the battle against despair what will happen to me? will i die? will i go crazy? will i quit caring? im fighting harder but im still losing ground it threatens to swallow me nothing seems to help is there any help? i feel alone no one around me im sinking into the blackness it terrifies me it seems as if no one cares they have all forsaken me i think about giving in stop fighting the enemy is too strong impossible to beat my resistance is crumbling my soul cries for help but no one hears no one cares they just turn away ignore my pain i think about just diving in embracing the despair it is all that is left i slowly feel less and less except for sadness the tears have long since quit falling now i am empty a mere shell filled with sorrow i close my eyes i think about not waking up seeking solace in the eternal silence i dont want to give up but no one else cares it pushes me farther down deeper into the blackness no one notices no one cares