The Life of This Writer

writing is daydreaming on paper or sometimes straight into a computer. notes crossed out, smacked around, slashed, re-visited, starred, circled, checked, underlined, slashed out again, retrieved. after print has happened, it all begins anew. I count the syllables, make six hundred tally marks on the page, slash out, cross out, circle, write OKAY in big letters, draw arrows, put Xs, start rearranging. Using 1, 2, 3, and A, B,C, as I valiantly try to figure out where the next line is going, or whether to even keep it. I sit down to figure it out, and decide it will be easier to begin again, rather than edit what has already been typed. So I begin again, slashing, dashing, drawing, starring, circling, smacking, cracking, discarding, resurrecting. the life of this writer.