The Knocking In My Head

Not Yet! I'm not ready... How dare you try to change my life right now! I told you I wanted longer, told you I needed my own time, but you are knocking on my door, and I can't get rid of that knocking sound. I feel the knocking deep in my head... I told you I wanted it in my time, that I wanted to leave until I come back, but life is pushing me towards you, and I question what should truly be. I feel the knocking deep in my head... I ran away so I didn't have to face the scars, the lies, the painful thoughts. Yet I feel the knocking deep in my head... Fine! If you think I am... Then you help my frightful dread! If I tell you that I'll go now you must help me through. Fill me with the truth. Something needs to help heal the pain. Now I feel a knocking on my heart.