The Editing of Me

My words were rewritten until they became yours As grammar and syntax perfected your thoughts Pages lined with highlighters polished me to extinction I wanted to resist all of those good intentions Yet I knew you wanted your best words for me You weren't listening so you couldn't hear what I was asking for Poor boy me I lacked the courage to say it loud enough I felt my voice become tiny as my heart disappeared Sure my words were somewhat awkward Still I had things to express that way My rhythm was imbedded in the word play You crumbled my granite and turned it into clay It happened slowly a bit day by day I was there hidden in the disconnected details Crystal blue eyed observations to share Becoming myself on the verge of aware You could have found me there My words weren't lacking weight or substance Like a series of road signs I pointed in a certain direction I wasn't looking for polished perfection What I desired most was emotional connection! The trip must have seemed hard You couldn't see past the curves in my road It was to difficult to decipher my emotional code So instead you bulldozed through my mind with a big truck weighted with your own heavy load If only you could have lingered and waited Maybe you could have been sated My words were interplayed and related The strength of your ego I had not anticipated In your wake I was left dejected and frustrated There had been points of interest along the way sprinkled star dust amidst the Milky Way Beneath were gardens in which you could have come to play There was no rush, I wanted you to stay Until my liquid thoughts were morphed into hay There before you I had erected statues of delight adorned in billowing fabric made of light Perhaps you were blinded by my bright unexpected in the middle of the night You could have occupied my pleasure Below my surface a spring fed treasure A gift for you beyond measure You could have witnessed the essence of me Even though you came so close you just couldn't see... This is an old one that I have significantly reworked.