The Drama That Silently Unfolds and Then Packs Itself Away

I'm feeling better now, but feel the after effects of the event that wasn't I feel I need to care less Instead of feeling all the pain The pain I can't take I still grieve that I leave it with you I close my eyes and grieve You won't know that Is everything wrong with me Or everything right I feel unnecessary I'm invited to the parties I'm sought out on the phone People want me to know That I should never feel alone But I cry silently And say I'm fine I'm writing these lines With tears streaming down my face All about a feeling, that I can't particularly place Two lots of bad news, last night, then today I think I wasn't fixed But I carried on anyway I'm so much less than I could be In every single thing My self awareness off the chart As I'm held together whilst falling apart I don't know why I cry I don't know why I'm sad There could be nothing wrong If I cared less Overwhelmed by emotion Maybe I cry for myself It's like I'm tangled in branches Unable to break free The wind that casts me skywards Is nothing but a breeze Light showers of rain And I'm falling to my knees I need to pick myself up All I need is self belief When the wind blows in my favour I'm soaring out of sight But I'm digging my own grave Before it turns night