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The Deepest Sadness

My soul cries forever with its deepest sadness betrayed by a love that never was a child innocent beaten by angry hands clutched by a World War from a father whose eyes were vacant I still remember the rage, the angry voice, the words "Come here!" My head always bowed in silent withdrawal, eyes that stared at nothing barely walking yet moving forward knowing what was to come... again The hard slap on the back of the head feet leaving the ground hands trying to break the fall feeling numb the sharp sound of the razor strap being lifted from the nail it hung on used like a whip across back and legs while being lifted by one arm the screaming, the crying the terror of it all It still haunts my mind in the quiet dark spaces and always will My eyes well up when I remember it's a memory I keep hidden deep within my damaged soul My own children would never know such things I survived but, at what cost To always wonder what could have been yet happy, for it's a sadness, my children have never known 8/22/17 Contest I'm a Survivor

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Date: 8/30/2017 12:50:00 AM
Thank you for sharing this, Frederic, I know it must have been difficult, but you have touched my heart, and your courage is amazing. I, too, ended a cycle of neglect with my children, and I swore I would hug and kiss them until they asked me not to ... but they NEVER asked me not to, and now they are loving parents. Blessings on your success in overcoming, and congrats on your win!
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Date: 8/29/2017 9:03:00 PM
Frederic. What a powerful poem. I am so sorry you had to endure this and you are certainly a survivor! This is so well written and expressed. Congratulations ! :)
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Date: 8/25/2017 9:10:00 AM
The fear and pain, both physical and emotional, come through loud and clear. Very powerful writing!
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Date: 8/24/2017 1:48:00 AM
Frederic....this tears at my heart....flays it. If there is a true to life heart goes out to you. Why? How can such things happen? I'm moved to my depths with this piece. Survive and thrive. Blessings
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Date: 8/23/2017 3:12:00 PM
Amazing poetry, Frederic, i read your sorrows with sincerity, able to relate, a poem that needed to be written...
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Date: 8/22/2017 12:25:00 PM
Sometimes people learn from the mistakes of their parents. Your children are blessed to have you as their father, and I have admiration and compassion for you for the telling of your mistreatment as a child.
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