Richard Lamoureux Poet Free verse

The Days That Brought Me Here

I thought I would go backwards
Into my uncertain
My awkward
The days of my wondering
What will I be when I grow up?
Will I ever grow up?
Is everyone better than me?
Boy I wish I could be more like that
That guy
Yep him
The athletic confident one
Words come so easy to him
Jokes flow freely from his lips
And they laugh
They love being with him
What's it like to be that self assured?
He has so many friends
None of them would ever talk to me
What would it be like to hang out with the cool kids?
I try telling myself
It doesn't matter
I have a few friends
I want it to be enough
I think it's enough
With them
I imagine and pretend
To be funny
Interesting
Until
One smile
One chuckle at a time
I gradually become me
A better more confident self
Assured
Witty
A lover of words
Dialogue 
Conversation
I talk my way towards my future
While listening for clues 
Building myself two by twos
Real friends are the ones I choose 
Their words
Teach me about them and myself
I don't hide on lonely street
There are more people to meet
So I jump up off my seat
Rewrite myself on many a sheet
Until I can follow and hear my internal beat
Do what needs doing
Repeat and repeat 
Until I come to here and now
Breathless with WOW
Understanding HOW
That uncertain and awkward part
Changed everything 
It still is
And 
Always
Will be
An important part of me
Because it helped me see
There are many many 
Incredible
Significant and individual
ways to be
So now I choose
Care Free!

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Elaine George July 20, 2015 at 10:41 AM Hi, Richard, I think growing up is the hardest thing we ever do. I am currently putting together a book of short stories.. Currently, I am working on one entitled 'Cuddy', which I might post here at the soup. It is about that awkward stage of growing up as you have written so well here. I can totally identify with this free verse. bfn Elaine

Njeri Hunjeri June 8, 2015 at 1:30 PM WOW just the words i needed today, to get my pen from the hiding and continue writing. Thank u and b blessed

Constance La France May 10, 2015 at 12:58 PM Richard, raw with emotion and honesty, a wonderful write 7, for me I was not happy until I started being "me" the mask removed and thanks for visiting my poem, BW

Monterey Sirak May 7, 2015 at 2:30 PM Wow!!! This is a stunning write. Love the line "Rewrite myself on many a sheet"

Richard Lamoureux May 5, 2015 at 8:30 PM Thanks to all, sorry, short of time but I appreciate the visits!

Kp Nunez May 5, 2015 at 8:34 AM Sorry for being remiss...dropping back to congratulate you on this poem having been awarded POTD! All the best, Rick! Kim :)

Angie Thomas May 4, 2015 at 2:36 AM Congratulations on POTD Richard :) I think that the poem is something everyone can relate to... I definitely can.

Sandra Haight May 3, 2015 at 8:19 PM Hi Richard, congrats on your touching poem being honored as Poem of the Day! Sandra

Kp Nunez May 3, 2015 at 7:44 PM Yes! POTD! Congrats, Rick! Kim :)

Brynn Rose May 3, 2015 at 5:53 PM Very nice Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:10 PM Thanks Brynn.

Sizwe Hlabisa May 3, 2015 at 4:36 PM Lovely indeed Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:11 PM Thanks Sizwe, cool name! What does it mean??

A. H. Sewell May 3, 2015 at 4:24 PM A touching write, Richard. Congrats! Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:12 PM Thanks A.H.

Rob Carmack May 3, 2015 at 4:18 PM Congrats Richard! Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:08 PM Thanks Rob.

Anne-Lise Andresen May 3, 2015 at 2:31 PM - A poem from your heart, Richard - Congratulation with p.o.t.d. ! - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:08 PM Congrats on poem of the week for you and Liam!

Wilma Neels May 3, 2015 at 11:37 AM An awesome write Richard, no surprise that it was chose as POTD ;) congratulations with the achievement as well.. Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 12:19 PM Thanks Wilma.

Eve Roper May 3, 2015 at 8:44 AM Congratulations on your Poem of the Day, Rick. A growth through life we can not understand until we grow up and place our steps into place. Blessings dear friend Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 9:01 AM Thanks Eve.

Eileen Manassian May 3, 2015 at 8:16 AM CONGRATS!!! Congrats, Richard, on being chosen for POTD. :) I'm thrilled for you. So happy....you surely deserve it. Love seeing your name on lists... I followed your advice and posted. Thanks for being there for me. Hugs Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 9:02 AM I'm glad you posted it again Eileen.

Tim Smith May 3, 2015 at 8:11 AM Stopping back to congratulate you. I had a feeling I'd see this one here....is it warm enough for tennis? Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 9:03 AM Heading out shortly.

Robert Lindley May 3, 2015 at 8:07 AM Great write my friend. I finally grew up and found myself to only be me. And thats alright by me. A7 for this fine poem my friend... Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 9:04 AM Good for you Robert, that is truly a blessing.

Mama Bear May 3, 2015 at 7:45 AM You have written from the heart and deserve to be POD congratulations on a lovely piece. Love Mom Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 9:08 AM I love you mom!

Casarah Nance May 3, 2015 at 6:42 AM Keep going until you can follow and hear your internal beat, great message, there are some who give up so easy because they are not one of the cool kids. Like a butterfly emerging some times you need to live a caterpillar first. This was real and relatable. Hugs, grats on poem of the day :) Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:25 AM What a nice surprise! Thanks Casarah.

Debbie Guzzi May 2, 2015 at 7:06 PM The gift of everyday brings us closer & closer as you say to who we really are, sometimes it can take a lifetime! Light & Love Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:30 AM So true Debbie.

Arthur Vaso May 2, 2015 at 11:38 AM Loved this, I still wonder what I will be when I grow up! Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2015 at 7:31 AM Why would you want to do a silly thing like that??!

Kp Nunez May 1, 2015 at 5:43 PM Deeply contemplative write, Richard. I like it. 7. Richard Lamoureux May 1, 2015 at 7:13 PM Thanks Kim. ;0)

Constance La France May 1, 2015 at 5:41 PM Richard, I like to tell people that I have lived many different life's, my father used to say that life was like chapters in a book, I am quiet also, and I love this place I have arrived at, your poem is deep and full of emotion, well done, 7 and thanks for visiting my poetry today Richard Lamoureux May 1, 2015 at 7:12 PM As always Constance, it is my pleasure.

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