The Broken Shell

The broken shell How can i explain this feeling that smothers me each day? What are the words i say to you in reply to “how’s you today?” My insides they are dying, they are frozen to their core My body just a broken shell lying lifeless on the floor My mind is full of demons dancing round in glee Prematurely celebrating their victory to destroy me. A hundred million different thoughts race round inside my head. It’s the tireless over analysing everything you’ve said. It’s the party i won’t go to, though i hate to be alone. This person that you’re seeing all but empty but skin and bone. “Cheer up” you say? I’ve tried that. But it’s so painful just to smile, Please just let me lie here, just for a little while. No “fresh air” will not “help me” what don’t you understand? I don’t want you to try and fix me all i need is just your hand. I feel like i am drowning, the tears i’ve cried now are a lake, Your hand can stop me drowning, your hand can stop this ache. This room is filled with darkness but you are my shining light When my eyelids shield against the fear you can be my sight. Remind the children mommy loves them when the dark pulls her away. Have them there all waiting to help her through each day. My mind it may be broken, but my heart is still intact I may not show it but i love you, keep that always as a fact.