The Affair

I want to shut him Out of my heart But when he's around My heart skips a beat My breath catches In my throat When I hear his voice And for a moment The world fades around us. We're not good for Each other,  I know I told him so a long time ago But I can't seem to push him away Though I know He's not here to stay. He calls, he texts, I answer my phone Though I wish he could Just leave me alone. Sometimes we end up Together in bed And a small voice whispers In my head This isn't right. I know it isn't And I don't care For now it only matters That he is here. And when we're done He goes back to his wife And I, to my husband. I hate this double life.