Tears of soul

I want to cry away my soul Slowly and painful I want to feel every drop When it's touching the floor I want each tear that drops to be every minute till moment ago I want it to be slow and long I want it to be painful so my mind will finally shut off I want to feel the pain Only to be able to feel again I want a silence in my head And sleep inside a pond of tears I want to spit any rotten part inside And watch it wash away like day after night I want to take out any foggy part till I won’t feel a fear like a child trying to sleep under the darkest sky And what kind of dreams I am going to have When I’m washed away from pain Would I finally be able to breathe Would I be able to finish a knit Would I find the same feeling even when the sun rising Would I be able to run away And not just close my eyes and fool myself would I be able to fly and fight a cassowary pretend to be a butterfly I want to cry away my thought Fast and soft I want to forget every drop When it’s touching the floor I want etch tear that drop To be a millisecond of thought I want it to be fast and short I want it to be soft as snow So my brain will freeze off any other nick of thought I want to feel the relief Only to remember how it used to feel I want silence in my head I want a wind of a mountain And the mountain is my brain I want to spit any lava that was kept inside Watch it fall and get dry I want to take away any monsoon cloud Till there's no other shade of blue and white And I know all I can cry is words But why I can't erase the ones who been written all along