Take My Picture

Stuttering shudders Trapped in my tides of trepidation What am I doing here? What am I doing here? Take my picture, Capture the fear In quivering chapped lips Am I really here? Why am I here? Let me find myself Before you smash every bit of me Let my body ease into my purpose Take my picture What will you remember? These eyes twinkling with doubt Every moment you are near, Some teething fear Screeching, screaming... That I will never be enough That I will never be heard With your averted eyes and ears Smiles ingenuine It is so easy to be you When your Feelings are swept back And you dust off the pain To unfortunate me I will find who I am Before you finally see Before you dine decidedly On what you think is me I must be who I am And I don't need your help To get there While you drown yourself With all that you are not August 25, 2018