Sweet Baby

Sweet baby, another evening shows itself; Another day has closed. This is the time I long for you and mourne my choice the most. I wonder how I have the right to feel, the pain and loss I do. It was afterall MY decision to refuse change which meant lose you. At first you were just sickness; morning, noon and night. I see it now, my darling, how you were just growing with all your might. I pray you know sweet baby, wherever you might be, how frightened and lost I was, I did not feel like me. And with that one scared choice, at the time I thought was right, the flicker of hope and the future, went out just like a light.