Swan on Still Waters

i saw a white Swan in the pond floating carelessly towards its aim then i saw myself in the same still water i always pray for the same serenity for the years to come in life but within me there's a ravaging storm which cannot be helped even catharsis fails me sometimes i try to calm myself breathing in and out i speak words of wisdom by putting a hand on my chest but i fail every time and so i end up crying by raining all the posion out of my eyes