Suicide Suicide

I went to watch the movie Exodus: Gods and Kings I cried a lot afterwards It's not the fact that I personally felt the two "brothers" were more abnormally closer in the movie than how the story of Moses is depicted in the bible, It's the fact of the dedication The dedication: in memory of Tony Scott To me, suicide feels as if someone is removing my heart from my chest and using it as a punch bag It affects me so much Whether it's committed by someone known or someone unknown I actually haven't had anyone close to me die that way But I've had close ones that have almost gone that deep due to depression Like my brother who has mental illness I've made it my duty to always check on him and make sure he is happy To support him where I can Because I can't imagine! Or me, one time, a very long time ago The night after I watched that movie I went home feeling sad I googled more about Tony and became even sadder In my Google research of famous people who have died of suicide, Robin Williams being the top of the list, I accidentally run into Sylvia Plath effect From there my sadness went deeper into abyss It moved faster than a rocket It took me almost a week to recover I wanted to stop writing I didn't want to die writing poetry It's been months now since I watched the movie Since my sadness... And I've written more poems, because I need this therapy in my life