Arilene Ramos Poet Dramatic Verse

Suicidal Thoughts

These suicidal thoughts got me lost inside my head
It's hard for me to wake up  and roll out of bed
I'm tired of feeling weak, sad and I'm tired of feeling dead every day gets harder i destroy everything  I touch .....I’m afraid Of my thoughts 
I'm tired of feeling judged because nobody understands
And it's hard for me to vent cause I hear the same 
But you don't feel what I feel when the pain hits
I can fill my walls up, I can cave in
I see my downfall and I'm falling straight in
Nothing feels the same anymore, no, 
I don't feel the love, all I feel is alone
What If I become so numb, so cold?
Wish that I can run far away from home
I've been holding on for far too long
Slowly letting go from the world in my palms
Sorry if this hurts, I don't mean no harm
Put me in the dirt cause my time has come

Slowly letting go
Of all I've ever known
But all you've ever seen
Is all I've ever shown
But deep inside I am trying
And deep inside I am crying
And deep inside I am dying
I'm tired of holding on .... God please save me someone help me please I can not do it anymore

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Joseph P. DiMino December 15, 2019 at 11:37 PM This is a good start. Write about your feelings, speak to others who are going through similar heartache. Seek professional help. I have been there. God loves you.

Arilene Ramos December 12, 2019 at 10:48 PM When you lose hope and faith Aqua Marine December 21, 2019 at 8:31 AM Hi Arilene, I just came to find out how you are doing? I am still available for you, so just as Joe says above, there is help available. Some of us have overcome many troubling experiences, and tbe feelings that go with them. You are obviously a senstive hearted person, and that is why you are deeply affected...but that also means you have a good heart. And if you pray to God to help you, that shows that you believe he is listening to you. And sometimes he gives us advice we can follow, thriugh other humans who have conquered those feelings of helplessness and hopelessness... So Joe and myself, know what can be of assistance to you. Try to do one small positive action today.((Hugs)) Arilene Ramos December 14, 2019 at 7:45 AM Thank you I need a friend or someone who understand the way I feel trust me i pray to god for not letting me killed my self I can’t do this anymore Aqua Marine December 13, 2019 at 3:08 AM Arilene, I hear you, ok? There are lifelines you can contact, to give you some comfort. Even if you can get to the nearest Hospital asap. Ive been where you've been...it took time, but I'm much more able to deal with life's problems now. Depression comes from helplessness and hopelessness...And faith has kept me alive...This is how valuable you are to God, the Creator: Matthew 10:29 - 31. 2 Corinthians 1:3, 4. Soupmail me if you want to talk, ok? ((Warm Hugs...) Aqua Marine. I hear you...