Strawberry Flavoured Lips

I want to scream I want to cry I want to curl up I want to die With every waking moment I’ve awoken sad I can hear my thoughts And they are all bad With my thoughts taking over And I slowly succumb I can finally be at peace with myself My eyes dilate as my soul is disappearing I’ve only worked to live To touch and to feel What life would be like If only I was real At long last I’ll see better days Ones I’ll finally understand To taste those strawberry flavoured lips Maybe things will make sense I always feel like when I’m hidden away I feel as if I’ll never be apart of what’s been built I’ll never be accepted because of who I am But I’ve been told to persevere I am not the strong person people make me out to be I am not the smart person think I am I am a simple nobody I will waste away I thought I was done with this depression I thought I couldn’t let it consume who I am if I’d forgotten But I can never forget I can never let go of this feeling The feeling of not being enough The feeling of being dirty Or Ghetto Or unworthy I have to try I’ve been trying But I can only try for so long I’m delaying the inevitable I’ve fought so hard Just to be back at square one It sucks to know that my life was a waste That I didn’t make my impact