Soul Rich

I've got love for the small few who stayed when I was at my lowest My heart's been broken and damaged so many times I try to hide a lot of the thoughts I have inside of my mind Paid for my mistakes, but I'm soul rich Kind hearted, but you've never seen a heart of my kind I don't express much emotion, but when I do, you know I mean it I'm so strong willed, but do I go too far in my rhymes? The best way to describe me would be the dumbest genius Only a small few get to see behind the wall I put up I've been numb for so long, I'm just relearning how to feel and touch My scars are on display, some don't like it, and it scares some It usually means a lot to me if I act like I care none I don't like to get my hopes up Deep down I'll be hoping for a certain chapter despite being a closed book I hold on to pain, thinking I haven't been broke enough I can fill in a full pad in a day and I'll think I haven't wrote enough Don't ask me my type, I simply love females Women are my weakness, I try not to focus on small details I've been a playa, sometimes not knowing the name of the girl I was laying with Sometimes I was too happy with great sex to realize I was in a bad relationship I know that's a flaw of mine and not a good thing But I'm still trying to fly with cut wings Judge me if you want, but my intentions are good It's just a lot of girls I meet, don't know the difference between attention and love I'm a good guy with a few bad traits But I won't be held hostage by my past mistakes To everyone who's mad that I found hope from the dirt You can suck my pen, swallow my ink, and choke on my words