Somber Reminder

Alas that these day's should be mine, when we should be celebrating with food and wine. Instead I live apart from the ones I love dearly, at the most cheerful time that comes yearly. Decorations and presents don't mean that much to me, my wife and daughter are what brings me to my knees. That I love them so much, not just as an emotional crutch. I was asked to leave home, with a cold hearted world to roam alone. Chaos of what we had together runs through my mind, not knowing what the future brings or what I will find. Dose it make you feel good to know that we're apart? It makes me ache down inside my heart. To have hope and desire for you and all that you are, Can you remove that mind laden scar? And all fear that you have towards me, Can you just let go so it can flee? Disarray for all can be forgotten, Will you hold it inside till your soul becomes rotten? Knowing that you don't want to talk to me leaves me at al loss, like I'm the son of god on the cross. Accepting all the suffering in life that I've caused you, taking my lashings thru and thru. The days grow more difficult as time goes by, these words are no trick to get inside. I know it's hard for you to believe me cause you're angry and scared, a somber reminder of the life we once shared.