Sincere Ap

SINCERE AP I said I’m sorry or what was done But I guess it wasn’t sincere because I’m being destroyed by the bitterness in me. Although I hide it with a smile, a joke, or laughter when in reality I’m continuously in sorrow crying on the inside because I’ve cried so much my tears have become dry and I programmed myself to make my tears go in reverse so I only cry on the inside Some days it’s easy to hide and some days it’s not It’s like a cancer rapidly killing me mentally It would be easier to be true if you didn’t give so many empty promises If you talk to me and not at me But I’m not occupied to judge Just to forgive and ask for forgiveness It’s just hard to forget But I will stop trying to forget, so I can look out for the same thing from happening since I was 7 A continuous cycle that has been going on Yet I will dig deep in the black hole that I have formed with the bitterness that has tried to consume my soul And apologize: For the lack of communication hiding my feeling Excluding one of you like the brother of the prodigal son And forgive: For missed birthdays, your days, graduations, and communications With saying this a ton has been lifted Unfortunately it hasn’t been said so I maintain with the weight of this unnecessary bitterness Living life on the edge because tomorrow is promised to one and that one is no me So I’m endangered of dying in regret and without reconciliation of my FIRST TEACHERS