Shays Poem

I thought of you last night i was sitting out in the cold air reminiscing about our first dare Chris Brown take you down i think was the song Up on the phone talking junk for GOD knows how long I dont think i every told you this but your sweet soft voice i always found to be bliss From your heart warming laugh to the soothing sound of you breathing as you lay there sleeping Forgive me if i become to deep but the mere essence of your heartbeat pumping blood through your beautiful body allowing your lungs to contract and expand allowing you to breathe always kept me up longing to be near you to hold, to touch, to love...with every inch of my mind, body, and soul promising to never let you go... sad to say that was only a thought far from reality because in actuality you longed to be close to me and all i did was let you down repeatedly when subconsciously my feelings for you were deeper than i could have possibly ever imagined knocked out in a dead sleep deaf to the world or at least trying to be waking up in the middle of the night just for you even after ignoring the long distance calls from south germany from when you thought you saw monkeys to the times you just couldnt sleep your voice never failed to make me smile i fell in love with you a long time ago i just didnt know i guess thats why i can never let you go at least not in a literal sense i really dont like feeling like this but what can i do scared of the answer i reframe from asking convincing myself its for the best ill give it a rest... I love you always and forever