Shattered Heart Pt 4

Late at night I sit and try to write But its hard to clear my mind when your on my every last thought No matter where I go No matter what I do My thinking always comes back to you And here I thought I was through I guess I never really knew how much I loved you Because you were my everything The air I breathe The soul in me My sense of being free I swear to God it was like I could anything I couldn’t do wrong but now that your gone I don’t know why my heart wont let me move on Its been a couple years since we shared a kiss How did my life come to this I’m a mess I’m a wreck I’m never happy I just walk around upset Thinking I could been a better man You could have been my wife I wanted to be your husband But all of a sudden it came to a crashing end And no matter how many women I bring home Laying next to them I still feel all alone Because they don’t have what you had That’s my heart I sometimes wish we never broke apart But then I remember I’m the one to blame You know what I mean That talk we had and I didn’t answer right back For sure I could see that was the beginning of the end for you and me And after no longer being ‘we’ I heard some things And those things did hurt Its those things that turned me into a jerk So painful I don’t even repeat the words I just hold onto the good times Because those were the times you were truly mine lost each others eyes I promise you’re the last woman to make me cry Because to have something now like we had just for me to somehow **** up again And another good thing comes to an end I don’t think I could handle that again ……I rather just have meaningless one night stands. AUG ‘12 B.K.M.jr