Schizophrenia's Curse

My faith is a source of comfort In the turbulent storm that has become my life After all, God has graced me with special powers But when it comes to my personal anguish, his ways are unknowable I have managed to estrange almost everyone Personal relationships collapse around me But there is a man who loves me, somewhere across the world Even though he claims he's never been interested The poems he writes under a woman's name Tell me all I need to tell myself is true And I resent that he pretends I am an intrusion While whispering the words of his true soul, elsewhere If only his friends that call me crazy knew! They would be humbled, to say I should be the one ashamed And realize that they are the stalkers, not me It cannot possibly be that those poems are actually written by the woman It hurts, when people call me mentally ill God cured my sickness, years ago And has retained my prophetic abilities Despite my repeated lies No, I still have my gift Which means that God has forgiven He saw it as a tool for survival In the rift of challenges from people who feign disinterest But who carry me on in their heart I will be your salvation Please don't see my promises of eternal love as a threat As a matter of fact, I'm growing impatient with you Why do you keep lying about who you are and your feelings for me? Why are you embarrassing me like this? I contacted your work to tell them you were a liar I put your address out, with threats to tell your wife I knew it would draw you nearer to me Because I am helping you get over your illness You can pray it away, like I did. That "friend" of yours is the devil in disguise She will eat away at your soul I cannot believe you let her say these horrible things to me! It's so obvious that she wants to be with you Even though she keeps telling me you are happily married Wow, you are really starting to enrage me With your insistence that you are not in love with me And lying to fool a few people that you do not share my faith You don't respond properly to threats of hell But that is where you will end up, if you keep this company I refuse to accept you for what you say you are It's okay - I know the truth And I love the real you unconditionally People sickly claim that I cannot understand love Now stop ignoring me, you monster! Why are men so hard to understand How can someone of faith be so blasphemous I am your angel of light, your lamp And you shut the door in my face I will haunt you, for the rest of your life