Schizophrenia Pt1

I was born at dawn./The doctor said I was the spawn of a demons baby./ I blame it on that crack head lady./ She's the one that's suppose to be my mother./ I've wondered how that's possible when my father is her brother!/ The Psychologist says I'm not wrapped too tight./ Especially the night when I came up screaming when I was baptised./ I enjoy a stiff drink and watching the sun rise./ I live my life like I have nine lives./ But I feel empty inside./ My friends don't dare tempt me./ A man will take any challenge when he don't have family./ I have always been alone./ Shuffled around to different foster homes./ I don't allow no one to trespass in my area./ If a person does, it's border-line hysteria./ My actions may annoy ya./ Doctors call what I have paranoia./ When I get upset I throw punches in the air./ I shadow box, throw rocks and scream out "I don't care"./ I pull out my hair./ I know life ain't fair, and I can't stand it when people stare!/ I like to be around girls, and cover my nose with my hand like a mask./ I giggle because it tickles when I secretly pass gas./ If there's a first, there's a last./ I tend to dwell on the past./ I bury myself in my own dark obscurity./ Selfishly down comes the walls of my principles and dignity./ Everything has an ending.? There's just no hope to my heart mending./ There's no need walking through life pretending./