Say Hello To My Friend Depression

Drapes are drawn, the room dark and cold just the same as my heart and soul. It's an everyday struggle just to wanna open my eyes and have the strangth to climb out of bed. I face this constant battle every single day! No one knows how hard I fight and how exuasted it leaves me. The silent and deadly war with my mind, body, heart and soul is most definitely a sketchy one, one wrong move and it could be deadly. I am angry and I am sad, my soul is hollow, my heart well that is completely destroyed. My mind is nothing more than a cluster of dark and horrible thoughts and my poor body is battered and bruised. Most days I pray that God would put me out of my misery. Then on some of my few better days I try and force that pathetic fake smile upon my face, that a hundred times to one fails me. No one understands the constant pain that i suffer. No one knows the rage I must control and keep contained no one knows the fight I fight each and everyday. I feel like I'm drowning constantly choking and gasping for air with out the relief of the water finally filling my lungs and dying. Always in pain always suffering and stressing with no sign of comfort any where in sight.