Save Myself

I've shared my heart one too many times I've been there for others who never returned the loyalty I dealt I've been scarred by the past and the roads I've travelled I can't be there for others anymore because I need to save myself I've been told to stay quiet for sharing my truth in a world of lies I've bled for people who wouldn't provide me a plaster Would you judge a Wounded animal for thinking for itself to find a way to survive? Time to forget the people I gave my all too, who treated me like I didn't matter I never cared about opinions until she said she didn't like me She told me that I think too much of myself I had to take a deeper look at myself If only she understood the confidence I show is because my insecurities are screaming "Alex please hide me" That's the most vulnerable i'll ever let you see me As soon as I saw her I wanted it to be we I've got scars on my heart that make it difficult for me to open up I needed to be told to fix up because I found comfort in being broken up I became numb to pain because the feeling of bleeding wounds was normal to me I looked my demons in the eye and it was awful to see A former self-harmer who still has nightmares about it But the nightmares remind me that I've learned to live without it I've shared my heart one too many times I've been there for others who never returned the loyalty I dealt I've been scarred by the past and the roads I travelled I can't be there for others right now because I need to save myself