Sadness and a Question

Why does the sadness always return An annoying voice in my head Always telling me that I'm not good enough and never will be Always telling me that I'm just another ant living in the ant-hill No one will notice if I'm gone No one will care And I always let the sadness fill me with an ocean of tears I always give in to the pain, the hurt I always let it twist my organs into knots that can't be untied Why aren't I strong enough to stop this monster I call my emotions? Why do I always let it get to me? Why can't I control my own fears, my own thoughts, my own body? Why can't I control myself? And as the sadness racks my brain for any possible sign of happiness Trying to destroy it I continue to ask myself; Why? But As you may have guessed The sadness never let's me answer My own question