rush of love

love is a blessing and a curse for me its both the feeling of passion rushes in my blood i cannot explain this fuzzy feeling its a amazing feeling but sometimes it can crush your heart loving someone isn't always a good thing you love them but then they use that against you loving someone wanting to protect them wanting to make them happy sacrificing for them spending on them at last they spit in your face regret and self hate will start smacking you in the face question's linger in my head asking myself why? self hate because i ruined my life just for them to be happy in the end they spit in your face