Right Now

Right Now. . If you knew how I feel right now you’d be drinking too A breath away from ending it all Feeling lonely And a very dark shade of blue The ceiling is coming down The walls are closing in I’ve just had too much And my resolve is wearing thin . Another lonely night home alone No one ever calls and no one phones I exist and live in limbo Umbilical chord severed from the world All I wanted was to get married And have a baby girl . So here I sit in solitude Can of beer in hand Trying to suppress the mood But just one beer Will never do . I tried reaching out But no one took my hand I now suffer in an ugly world I no longer understand . I beat myself up Swear and throw and break a cup I don’t feel good enough My waking hours are a nightmare Daggers to my heart Laying on the floor And ripped apart And in the midst of my nightmare I can’t help looking back To where it all began And when I started to crack . I hope tomorrow never comes I hold on to the night tight With all my might How much more can I take Before I turn out the light Forever. . Peter Dome©2020.