Regret and Remorse

THE DAY LAID ITS FOUNDATION ON THE EARTH AS THE CLOUDS GREW DARKER AND DARKER. HOW CAN I ALLOW THIS NOT TO RUIN MY SPIRIT SO MANY PEOPLE I HAVE LET OUT OF MY LIFE. WITH ALL THE BICKERING AND ALL THE FIGHTING I MUST BE ABLE TO MAKE GOOD. I HAD SOME VERY SPECIAL FRIENDS BUT I PUSHED THEM AWAY OVER AND OVER AGAIN. FEELING AS IF I WAS I HAD TO KEEP MY WALLS UP AND NOT LET ANYONE IN. THE HEARTACHE ERUPTS AND I DO NOT KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. AFRAID OF BEING A FOOL AND AFRAID OF BEING ALONE HOW CAN I NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. A NO-WIN SITUATION IS WHAT I AM IN THE PEOPLE I CRAWL AFTER HAVE NO INTEREST IN ME. THE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN MY PRESENCE WHO WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME I MISTREAT I MISUSE. BUT I HIT ROCK BOTTOM AND SEE WHERE I MADE MY ERRORS IN THIS LIFETIME BUT I COULD NEVER MAKE UP WHAT I DONE TO THOSE WHO HURT ME. NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS SEE WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE IT RIGHT.