Recorded Emotions

With me, there were word sounds and expressions of grief upon being informed of the passing of a sibling. Each one's passing ignited a sound, brief words, or simply a voiceless stillness that seemed to identify the emotion of the moment unique to each one. Sometimes, not a word, but like a quick gush of wind, that blows over you with a deep gush of sorrow, tears, and strong crying. These are unforgettable moments of unforgettable emotions, about unforgettable loved ones. Case in point: The death of my oldest sister in 1999. I received a call from a younger sister stating that our sister would not survive the head injury she incurred from being hit by a vehicle. She was all but brain dead at the time. Realizing her impending death, all words ceased, and I went ballistic. A deep gush of grief and sorrow overwhelmed me with LOUD CRYING, and I could barely breathe. Case in point: The death of an older brother who was one and a half years my senior. In the Spring of 2003, a call came from St. Louis, informing my wife of my brother's death. I was very subdued as a numbing silence swept over me; and the only words I remember uttering were, "OH CALVIN". Case in Point: In December of 2003, a call came informing me that a younger sister in Indiana had passed away. My grief was deep with a SILENCE of SADNESS, and not a word. Case in point: Word came in November of 2012 that another younger sister of mine had passed away. I was fortunate enough to have spent some quality time with her earlier the summer of that year. I was with her as she battled for her life during hospice care. Although the doctor had given her very little hope of survival, she seemed to be on the winning side when my wife and I departed to return home. Four months later, she died. When I received the fateful call of her demise, all that I could utter was, "Huh". It was a grunt of bewilderment. It was a grunt that essentially said, " O Lord, I thought she was going to beat that cancer". I could not speak my grunt, but God read my spirit and understood every word. "HUH". Case in point: A call came from a sister in October of 2013, informing me that our oldest brother had passed. I do not remember any spoken words of emotion. There was a quiet sense of death's reality; just a calm sense of acceptance. The reality that we all will someday depart this life. 04082017;07302017PSContest, Sad Free Verse, Laura Loo, P-NA