reality check

i look in the mirror but i don’t see me i see a clearer version of someone people want me to be i view them as fake while im the one trying to take their son by dressing different acting different just so i can be liked while, in reality— do i even like myself? if i’m doing all this just to get a goodnight kiss is my soulmate truly in me do i need to love myself first? do i need a reality check.