"questions"

who can you trust when you've already been betrayed by so many? where do you run too...when you are so use to having to run away? how do you have dreams, when they've all already been crushed? how do you love, when you've never really felt what love is? when it seems like the whole world is caving in around you, and you feel like you can't take it anymore, and suicide seems like the right answer, but there's still a little piece of you saying "its not my time" when the world around you seems so cruel and your pain is undescribable... when it feels like a knife lodged right in the middle of your heart.... and theres no one there to pull it out what do you do when your mind is running in a thousand different directions? when every turn you take seems like another dead end street... and you feel so alone and cold... you ask yourself "whats this life for" when you have hit rock bottom... and you think no one is there, or no one cares but the whole time jesus has been right there by your side but your too blind to see or hear him??