Poisonous Mind

I stand here and I ask why why does my heart hurt why does my mind doubt why can't I trust know that his love is constant why do these thoughts pound constantly beating my skull driving me insane I love him isn't that enough why must I have his proof why can't I trust his words I just want him with me telling me he loves me why does my mind haunt me slowly killing me I can't take this it hurts so much deep down squeezing making me wish to scream cry out and release it why won't it let me be what is wrong with me why am I like this slowly killing myself all these thoughts poisoning me will I ever escape this pain