Plummeting

There are always doubts burrowing Evading, stinging as they cling I began to whimper in their tremors Bleating like a lamb With a sinking heart And as I sobbed in the light of Pain's accustomed reality, I forgot how starstruck I was I forgot how, impassioned, In love I was, with faith Before long, I was plummeting so fast Below the earth, Debris scratching me Claws clutching and scraping A glimmering grin in ancient eyes As I fell straight through hell And out of the earth, Sinking into space Where I once floated This crushing consciousness of my youth Brought me to this solitary place Leaving no room for anyone to believe - How much must I age, For your doubts to leave? Intertwined in its intricate ills, Sin slaps me As I writhe with want Cutting me out Sending me deep inside of myself Welcoming the loss of heart The loss of home Bidding goodbye to hope I trusted you, selfish mortal No longer will I ravish myself in your lies I trust only In the grief of goodbyes In the embellishing sadness That always returns And always feels right Let me love the way I will Quit casting shadows on my light Let me suffer for my foolish conduct In these endless, heartless pitfalls, Let me show you why