Perfect Family

Sitting here thinkin about some real sad sh#% , but I'm out of my feeLings. guess I'm close to not giving a f*%# But only time will tell if I step up, rebel against stayin in a broken relationship when im unhappy. sacrificing to be "what is a good parent " that raises there child with two parents around. yet when no ones around cries alone in the dark where no one can see. but the biggest game is to let everyone believe , I'm in a happy place , but I'm losing my mind. I usually don't give up , but don't think ill make it this time. I'm ready to be real and have something real beside me. make me feel all the things I've only hoped and wished for maybe? possibly..Know what real love is ,and how it would never break my spirit nor put me down, feeling unworthy dirt, rocks , spit on the ground. and maybe then I can feel beautiful ....., and not just physically cause my spirit needs it as well, but like I said before its a working progress and only time will tell!