Out Loud

I can’t sit still. No. Really. The stillness aches more Than the constant movement my heart And my head both move at The speed of light they Move so fast even I have Trouble keeping up. Voices. The voices talk so fast they are Inaudible most days they say Everything and nothing all at Once. Silence. Silence makes my ears ring it makes me So damn uncomfortable that Sometimes I talk out loud to Absolutely no one at all just so I can hear something The problem with Talking is talking Is for people who Know how to talk meanwhile I trip over my own tongue literally Always like I Forget it’s even there until You kiss me I digress this Isn’t about you this Is about me But I Just need to say this- Out loud To absolutely no one at all- When you’re not around I forget How to breathe involuntary Reflexes are no longer Involuntary except For loving you (you give me No choice) And there I go again I’m Rambling on about you Out loud to myself of Course (always to myself) It is the hardest thing to say Out loud to you Especially when I can’t Stop kissing you kissing you makes The stillness and the Silence bearable I may not Remember how to talk but I do I do remember how to breathe