Our Tormenting Love

Shut up darling, I am about to scream No, it’s not your fault that you are mean I’ll pick up this mess I made with my heart I might be missing some parts Thousands of pieces shattered after you dropped it That act was quite reckless I’m still trying to figure out why you did But I’ve been told that curiosity is stupid Drowning without you Your rescue is long overdue I’m choking, sputtering up sobs What are the odds? You were the one who is keeping me down I can’t make any sound My vision starts blurring These lungs are burning Your hands are gentle as they prevent me from inhaling I’m swallowing all the lustful words I said Such phrases leave me feeling dead They tasted like iron and felt like razors cutting my tongue My suffering is thrown into your jokes and puns I practice remaining the same everyday Watch as I laugh and smile for you to hide my pain Shame, loss, heartache, and silence Doctor says it’s the symptoms of a broken heart Aren’t I just so darn smart? Headaches and heartache feeling under the weather Give me those love pills that make me better Lovesick from your dozens of poisonous words Recovering from the overdose of your drugs I barely made it out alive from this one I was convinced it was just all for fun Got a bit greedy after we started You would give me what I wanted ‘Selfish and toxic’ is what we were My therapist couldn’t agree more Curses escape my lips when you leave the room But my quietness is ignored like a silent tomb Words can either be loud, empty and raging Or hushed, powerful, and angry You’re so perfect one way but cold and reckless the other.