Opened Eyes

I open my eyes, willing myself, To see a brighter day. I don’t know what I am looking for, But I know, will come what may. I fake a smile, in the hope, That no one will see through. The haze that surrounds me, But then again, it’s you. I do not understand it, The love that you have shown. How could I have done it, Pushed it away, I’ve thrown. Everything I lived for, has now walked out the door. I have nothing now, nothing that I’m striving for. I wish that you were here again, I wish that I could share. My feelings with you now, As open as the air. I want you to know, Just how stupid I have been. I want you to feel, All the pain that I have seen. I tremble at the memory, Of my blood, as it spills. Down my arms, into the bath, Slowly as it fills.