One Wish

As I close the door behind me… I stand upon the porch. Every day I leave here… becomes so much more bitter sweet. I found the money yesterday so I could pay my note, But what about next month or the others sure to come. I raised my children faithfully under this old roof, and… Memories abound, like the raindrops that hit upon my roof. Yes, I admit leaving here will cause a little pain. But the day-to-day struggles have striped away the gain. Where once I held on steadfast… now I waiver on that thought. Instead of seeing comfort, now it’s the struggles I have fought. The food upon the table… outweighs the comfort of this house. But yet, my heart still bleeds for what will soon be lost. How to tell the children… it will be hard at its very best. I’m sure they’ll rail against it and cause me more pain, yet. But I can’t expect them to understand, this old grownups shame. I promised to protect them… so today I’ll continue on my search A job or a little money may pop up from anywhere, you know. All I have to do is keep my feet planted firmly on the ground. God will provide eventually, even if it’s a step, or two, or three down. Every day as I close the door behind me and I stand upon this porch… I say a little prayer and add a little wish… May tomorrow find us better off than here we are today… And may others please be helped like us… as we try to make our way. Written 7-07-2011