One for the yearbooks

Lighter of mind today I enjoyed everyone today The struggle was abstract I could look upon it from above, see its shape My wavelength was clear and even Not calm Smooth, intense, bright That same song repeating over 36 hours Carrying me forward, helping me focus Now I release it I step back Close my eyes dancing, I lose balance I fall I may forget myself, I try It feels like freedom….until I hit the floor Today I keep my gaze open wide I look behind their eyes Some of my favorite people Lighter of mind today A day of confidence, existential comfort Birthing hope I got knocked off my feet by a hug! Demanded of me - why had I not immediately given this hug? That is what makes the heart’s brain happy Clean, genuine laughter It shoots straight up, through the clouds! The entire body opens a channel for the soul to breathe It is effervescence of consciousness It makes even recent misery seem small and distant Easily conceivable, measurable, solvable This is why I try This is why I never completely believe the devil It is just as bold a day as the days I think I will die any moment A day like today, I remember the sky Because I was looking up I could not tell you about what lay beneath me Because my head was not hanging low These are photographs to put on the wall They shine Radiate warmth, evenness If I can get control of my squirming brain Even for a moment On days it refuses to behave I can point it towards these pictures Even a glimpse is enough Just to know these days are real too I manage to walk away from the grave To instead place my confusion in a bed To see if just maybe, I may wake up to a day like today