Once

Once you were here, right here, In this bed with me. Once I was your rock, And you were undoubtedly mine. Once I heard you say "I love you", In your own special way. Once you brought me laughter and daisies, And your special pink lilies, -only you.. Once you were here...now...now.. You're not. Not...not...not...Not here, not there, -not anywhere....anymore. Ever again... never again. But today's come, and yesterday's go, And I still feel you in me. I feel the sadness you bore when I put myself, -in your shoes. At times I pretend I am you, maybe this way I can understand why you did what you did. What was your why? -why? Who am I to judge you, When I've been down that rocky road. Why December 31, 2010? On a sorta warmish winter day. The day you last said "I love you", To no one else... -but me.. Why Me? I was the last person to talk to you. The last person who said our special saying, "LU"... Love U...too.. I was the last person to hold you, Believe in you, And saw your hope and your hell, -at the same time. I never envied you in your hell on earth. Now I envy, that you are in heaven... -without me...without.... Alone. But only you knew the pain and despair, As a sick woman would. Please lend me a hand during my last breath, And pull me up so high with you, Release me of the bondage of the flesh, So we can finally both soar with the eagles and angels. Once..you were where I wished you'd be here for, A much longer time than you were. Written By: Laura Loo