On the Inside

I feel so disconnected Yet I am connected all the time After years of living A very solitary life It has just hit me Somewhere in my heart I shut out the world On a face to face Fear of intimacy Being hurt before I locked up my feelings Giving little of myself To anyone, anymore Pushing others away Never letting down my guard Forming no bonds But always needing a friend I am not thriving Without human interactions I get close to people Only through their words The poems they write Weren’t even for me Those are my relationships I feel a connection It has always been enough That magical feeling I get When I read something That feels like it was written Just for me