Old Thoughts of Myself

.i have listened to this tune at least a 100 times as i sit and ponder the puzzle around me how to play the pieces is there even a chance in this chess game of romance i have been alone all my life never no sibling she taken from me before her chance at this game this journey of this world just descent on to the after life continue on my journey thru life school education or one torment of bullying and torment why did i live this pain destroying the inside destroying the brain 13 years of this middle and high school a bit different this brings new weapons to the game the game invloing love still a game it seems i cant win not then not in middle school no girl ever looked at me nor in high school i was hung up on one that would never love me no prom dates no dates at all am i really that much of a distburnce still threw all this i have tried threw failure after failure and being nice trying to help other giving advice trying to let others love backing away for the sake and sanity of others and there game there journey so tonight i sit and listen to these tunes once again crawling looking again hoping the reality of my turn becomes true i wanna slow dance in a burning room just to hold some one in my arms be the one she all ways dream of I have said all the right things countless times but its like destiny wont let me win some times so i ask god are u going to leave me crawling in the dark or are u going to show me some light some me some mercy and throw some one in my life that will give me the love i deserve i pray once again trying to have hope trying to show u some faith so work ur will show me something give me a sign help me before i lose my mind i am tired of being stuck in the torrment please put me in some new chapters a chaper with some love in life i need some one i truly do so please point me where i need to be